Finding yourself again after losing yourself

Hello Forum Friends this may just turn into a venting post so please excuse that as I just need to write things out in a safe space thank you,Finding myself and self growth is taking more willpower and perserverence than I realised I would need in order to move forward in my life,Ive been very much Plaqued currently with the feeling of self doubt and not being good enough especially in regards to special someone and my romantic life,overthinking and paronoia but I am on my meds this week I have been better this week ,I have my forum friends and though in person its at times a lonely journey Im the one who needs to keep myself motivated to move forward and keep perservering,despite self doubt which I realise where the self doubt comes from it comes from a parent who somehow succeded in planting the idea in my head from a young age that Im not good enough,that I wont get married ect ect,I have to keep fighting that critical voice in my head that says Im not good enough,worthy enough,ect ect,its a lonely fight but I do have some supports like here on the forum,Lifeline,my understanding Aunt who I talked to today,my doctor and in future the phychologest/phychiatrist ect I have to find ways to distract myself from negative thinking,find something constructive to do thats outside of my thinking over and over about the same things,something Positive to focus on an outlet maybe even a new outlet to try something creative would be good,if anyone has ideas for creative type outlets let me know but for now Im going back to watching Netflix,today Ive drank lots of coffee and some sweets,but Ive also kept overthinking throughout the day,anyway being cooped up at home as many of us are at the momment with lockdown no wonder Im overthinking,maybe some more online shopping or anyway hope everyones travelling ok thanks for listening,I know deep down that Im not as alone as I feel sometimes but just have to keep reminding myself that Im not alone