Lacking motivation to do just about anything

Thanks @Former-Member. I'm glad I'm not the only one who does this. The time before this admission I came home to an empty house and just fell on the floor and cried for hours. This time my gf has kept me going. I'm supposed to be studying today, but my brain fog and lack of motivation has just meant I'm goofing off instead. That just makes me feel disappointed in myself.

I guess I should be more patient with myself. It's only early days yet.

Thanks for replying @Kurra. I eventually forced myself to look at my assignment questions and managed only to knock off one small question, but I guess that's better than nothing at all. I also forced myself to wash my hair (it badly needed it).

Tonight my voices are giving me hell, but I'll manage to get through somehow. I always do.

I used to give my voices 'soapbox hour' whereby I used to say to them I wasn't going to listen to them until one hour before bed when they could communicate to me and I would openly communicate back. It worked well for many years, but lately doesn't. If I calmly whisper that to them, they just jump on me so to speak, telling me I'm worthless and giving me self destructive commands. I've even tried reasoning with them, saying that if I were to complete an act of self destruction, then they would cease to exist also.

Doesn't work however. They are still there and still just as nasty.