LauraveeNew Contributor
Confused, lost and concerned, questioning my diagnosis
Hi there
I have been diagnosed with depression for the last 20 years, multiple medications and dose increases. Nothing quite works, ongoing extreme depressive episodes (to the point that I do not recognise the things I have done afterwards and occasional hospitalisation)
My daughter was born last year, cue postnatal depression and anxiety. Which I have, I believe conquered. But there is still this ongoing history and continual episodes.
My partner recently mentioned he believed I had some symptoms for Bipolar 2, after dealing with me for years he had been researching for a while. After my most recent episode he needed quite a long break from me, which I retreated to my parents, after receiving clarity after my episode I spoke to my mum, she mentioned approx 10 years ago she suspected bipolar however this has never been mentioned from my doctors, so she left it.
I initially thought this could not be me, I am never happy, I could not relate to these hypanic episodes!
After more research I did find some information that sometimes hypomania can just come out as energetic but agitated, which I can relate to 100%
I also have long phases of what I call feeling 'normal'.
I have several upcoming appointments but I think I just need some form of reassurance that I am doing the right thing by bringing this up with my doctor, there is a part of my mind saying, they are the doctor not me, doing some research doesn't mean anything, going to the doctor and bringing this up terrifies me.
Can anyone relate to any of this 😞