Going Places that I've never been literally

I'll take 2 of whatever you had thanks @LostAngel 🙃

@saltandpepper no comment lol

@LostAngel that is what it was like when I first met Mr S

It isn't like that now, but he is very sick. I hope it will be again some day.

@LostAngel glad it all went well for you 💌💌💌

Bugger @LostAngel haha but sounded like an awesome night, glad you enjoyed yourself 👍

of course that is only one part of the dynamic between me and special someone,things take emotional work lots of work especially on my end but Im trying to be consistent without being clingy emotional work is so hard for me but Im trying for him just as long as I try to keep level headed and do things gradually in terms of communication slow and steady as I dont wont to overwhelm him with too much info at once and also cause our dynamic is not the average dynamic its a dom sub scenario which is freeing and not the typical conventional relationship but I like it that way the unconventional ,surprising ,spur of the moment dynamic like anything it is a delicate dance of give and take I do see him as my equal which makes me willing to put in effort but I need to be carefull not to over do the effort either as I dont want to go from being distant to clingy,need to keep things well measured in general everyday conversations but always be ready for the wild side of togetherness at any moment,it takes patience,calmness and adjustability,in short like anything else worth having in life it takes work but also boundaries and mutual respect,you see in my everyday life Im pretty much too used to being a control freak but in the special someone dynamic Im the sub so its like I have two opposite roles and honestly sometimes I wonder if I have a split personality of some sort but anyway its freeing to be able to let go rather to be in control,but then I go back to the everyday of back in control but then it is creating a kind of ballance in my life to have a space of letting go and a space of holding things together,needless to say its a juggling act to fullfill both roles interchangably but its well worth it for sure its worth trying new things and learning and growing or else nothing would change for the better its like a caterpillar finally growing wings to turn into a beautifull butterfly more peacefull and more complete instead of staying stressed and empty

@LostAngel Well done for trying to not be clingy and keeping it slow and steady.

Being full on can scare off the other person before they have truly got to know and love you. One step at a time 🌺🐛

thank you @Former-Member