Struggling with everything

Hi @BPDSurvivor @Snowie @BlueBay @Dimity @MDT @Eve7 @Former-Member and anyone else passing by.

Things are hard, I'm having another sleepless night , got issues with the family going on they are being really judgemental and making me feel worthless. My head is spinning in circles, I just wanna cry it all seems too complicated at the moment.

Family have been calling me fat which has stopped me from eating as they have been judgemental and it really has been upsetting me. They don't even care about my heart op, they are just like it's nothing major. It's just all screwed at the moment. They are telling me I'm faking my MH when I'm not I'm actually struggling and am anxious about my op.

The flashbacks are horrible they are from my trauma and it's all coming back to me, I feel really scared and overwhelmed with the flashbacks. I know my PTSD was triggered. I've been disassociating to protect myself.

I just feel so alone and like a mistake....

am safe.

Good morning @Fluttershy1

I hope you were able to get some more sleep hon.

I am sorry your family are treating you like that.

Please remember that we are here for you.

Lots of love and hugs 💗💗

Hi @BPDSurvivor @Snowie @BlueBay @Dimity @The-Hams @Eve7 @Itsjustme1 @Daisydreamer and anyone else passing by.

Melbourne may be going into a 5th lockdown, if we do it means my operation will be cancelled again and it is just going to distress me more, this is happening way to much I just want the operation over and done with. It keeps getting delayed.

I feel overwhelmed and anxious.

am safe

@Fluttershy1 I can understand your anxiety and concern Candy. Rescheduling all the time would be worrying and fuelling your insecurity. All you can do is trust that the medics have you covered and that it will happen and you'll look back on it with relief. At present the speculation is that it could be a short sharp lockdown of 3-5 days. I have medical and dental appointments early next week but I'm expecting they'll go ahead.

Do you have any activities planned for today and tomorrow? Eg cooking? I think I'll do a tofu stir-fry tonight.

Take care Candydipper.

Dimity

Looks like we Victorian's are in for lockdown no 5 😡😡😡 I am so over all this.
@Fluttershy1

So am I @BlueBay, it's a joke seriously.
WHY DID THEY LET SYDNEY KEEP FLYING IN 😡😡😡😡

my op will probably be cancelled

Oh no @Fluttershy1

I think we've all had enough!!

Yep @BlueBay, they should of shut the borders to everyone and we wouldn't be in.

So it's official. We're locked down. Hope ur OK @Fluttershy1 . Mindful breathing then distraction helped my tension headache while waiting for the announcement. Now just resigned to it. Sending you hugs, you'll get through it - we all will.