Thank you so much @Zoe7 You modelled for me ways of getting better help.
Tbh @Bunniekins @Former-Member
Even finding the right people in the field to talk to is not easy. We just need to perservere I guess.
Some Issues re expresing SI:
1) Sometimes those around are vulnerable like children or involved carers, and we want to protect them. Seems those with private health can manage those things better .... I never had that luxury, even though there was private health in my marriage, cos it was not really for my health, but for ex husband, not even the kids .... more about him proving his own stuff cos of his thing with his dad??? My job was to cook and clean and love unconditionally, without ever getting enough sleep or being allowed to say "no" Please do not so that. Then when SI came out to husband in a "weak" moment, after repressing it successfully for 5 years or so, to get through infancy of 2 children, he accused me of being irresponsible.
2) Sometimes the wkr over reacts and out come the police which is really not the right approach for getting to the depth of that quality/kind of personal thought. I have read many posts by people concerned about that "consequence". It is like a loaded gun going off instead of a trusted relationship built up by a listening confidant. Total waste of tax payers money. They need to improve the Community Mental Health Centres. It would be a lot cheaper and more effective.
3) Sometimes the worker is not really a good match, or adequately trained. There needs to be more than simply Suicide First Aid. Same as in other health scenarios the underlying issues need to be worked through.
Please Take Care @Former-Member @Bunniekins Somehow I got through a terrible period of recent SI, by actually doing some paid work. I am feeling a lot better this week, and the intrusiveness of SI has stopped. If my current Support Wkr can continue to stand seeing me every week, I may be able to "address my trauma" and move on, which would be really lovely.
