how things are going today

Hi Everyone my Anxiety is a bit up at the momment due to money worries mainly today waiting to find out how much the car repairs will cost today when it isnt pay week so anxcously waiting for the phone call from mechanic besides that I have to worry about buying a budget amount of food after I find out whats going on with the car,also some strange things are happening with online dating after Ive talked to my former first date guy whom I didnt meet anyway he seems to be my Ali in terms of what happend with the ghosting guy the ordeal that happend their and yes I for some reason told the first former date guy all about what happend so now hes kind of my Ali and shown the most care about this,I do feel hes the only one whos shown care about the situation and yes I do regret never meeting him in person but I keep telling myself no no no Im not gonna end up back with him strangely enough hes started likeing my facebook posts this morning but no Im not gonna entertain the idea that he likes me hes just being an Ali to me at least Ive finally figured out how he fits in my life from a distance cause for quite sometime I wasnt sure how to define him was he a friend? former love? no he is ment to be an Ali I understand now,I understand hopefully more than I used to about certain things,for now Ive got a date tomorow night with someone but not sure about that person and how things will go with them theres definete worries there although Im gonna be meeting them in a public place first so I will choose to leave if need be ,I also might rewatch some self defence moves on youtube just in case things go sour,other than that well just a few mucked up online short term flings for the meantime nothing really definete in terms of dates or guys,and at times I feel over it as if hey maybe I should just stay single/why bother,but still I keep trying theres been lots of confusin,hurt and worries ,lessons but I just gotta keep trying,but that also goes for the everyday aswell I just have to toughen up at times and keep trying,yesterday I finally manged to do a full afternoon of housework,even though I keep not wanting to get out of bed in the morning thanks to depression Ive wanted to just sleep alot lately but then call myself lazy for not seeming to things done but Im still trying,trying to toughen up emotionally to things,to situations and yes people,cause learning takes endurance