how things are going today

P.s I need to book a councilling session again cause I missed my phone counselling session but that has to wait till I can pay for the last few sessions although I do need counselling as Id rather talk to my counciller than family,Im keeping my issues isolated from family

I really like self defence. The self-defence is good, but even more so, the feeling of taking control of your own body is just .... I don't even have the words. Lots of different philosphies though. Some are a lot more "art" and some are a lot more "martial". The spectrum is like Miyagi Do and Cobra Kai but goes deeper in both directions. They're all worthy, but I'd say picking the right philosphy (or philosphies) is as important as picking the right techniques.

@LostAngel yes these expenses are a worry. My house insurance won't pay out my claim on works to my property. It will sort itself out hopefully

Gosh @Former-Member your issues seem more worriesome I can imagine your trying to make a lot of phone calls to sort out your home insurance @wellwellwellnez your advice is helpfull and yes agree with you about defence giving a feeling of control ect,I mainly waych Jujitzu self defence,actually theres a nice couple who run Gracie Jujitzu I ve watched a few of their techniques on youtube,but yes it would be very good to know Karate like Cobra Kai that definetly would also come in handy for self defence moves,if needed

@LostAngel thanks for your comments. I will get there. Keep your chin up, lovely

Hi LostAngel, thanks for sharing.

One thing that has helped with my anxiety/psychotic condition is having a shift of identity

Best to see myself as someone with a lot of money rather than seeing myself as someone who is scraping the bottom of the barrel

Because even if life is as bad as we think it is, we're still the richest people... who have ever lived on planet Earth, by a mile.

Don't know if it helps, but I'd be buying more of the things that will actually help you, rather than super cheap stuff

Anyway I don't know if it helps, but it has worked for me

I'm actually expecting a budget retractable tai-chi sword any day now. Gonna work on my "opera combat". Slowly coming round to external styles but still a big fan of "body zero". I once got wrapped up by a pretty effective Brazillian Jujitsu demo. Never felt more like I was trying to fight a giant python (with preditable lack of effect).

ok thanks everyone Ive tried keeping chin up but here it goes my intuition was right about the car costs worst nightmare scenario has come true the whole car engine needs to be replaced the mechanic was very kind about it but the cost would be $6000 to replace everything thats part of the engine and for that money I could get another type of car but the thing is the car is very sentimental to me cause it was my late fathers car and its been in the family for 25 years ,first my uncle owned it,then my dad owned it,then after dad passed Ive owned it for the last 5 or 6 years so its yeah a hard decision

Hi, it seems like you have a lot on your mind. I think a lot of it has to do with poverty. Do you need a job?