Just ‘tired’

I feel under appreciated.

I know kids aren't geared to think of any one other than themselves but especially in school holidays they have been at home (making more 'mess') and just sitting on tv or computer/phone ALL their waking hours.
Apparently to request assistance for them to put their own washing away in child slave labour. (Per my 10yo).
it doesn't help that my husband has a chronic back injury and so has limited times that it's not hurting to assist. I get cross when I know it's good and instead of do his turn on dishes goes cycling or lifting kayaks with friends then can't help because it hurts again.

at work people are asking if I'm ok. I can't hide my fatigue and growing resentment for people needing me atm. I've forgotten my shift, rocked up late and generally looking the fool.

long term I'm considering our relationship. I try show respect even if I'm frustrated but husband will swear at me (which I repeatedly assert is not behaviour families should do to one another). I don't want sex, not just from him but anyone. He now resents me for it. Everything he does irritates me. We used to get a long so well. I will do some activities I'm not head over heels for because it's together, but he won't entertain anything I want to do at all - it's boring or crap. He chooses to spend every moment not at work doing things for a youth group.

i don't think I'm being un reasonable. It's almost like it would be easier if I lived in my own. Then I won't have people be disappointed by me. It's certainly not helping my depression.