Help. Please.

Hey I read back, I'm sorry for what you've been through @saltandpepper really am 😔

Ah cheers @Anastasia appreciate it. Is what it is I guess. Been working through it all over the past few years, sometimes it gets a bit rough. Eh.

What about yourself, what can you tell me about yourself hey?

Childhood I grew up in fear, around violence/control. SA victim as a child, only once so i guess I was "lucky". I have anxiety now as it's reared its head from my boys situation. I spent a year wondering if I'd find him after his first attempt 😔 Think we're up to number 10 admission. I look 10 years my senior. But hey there's a lot worse off than me so I guess again "I'm lucky" @saltandpepper

Meds have kicked in @saltandpepper struggling to stay awake. I'll say goodnight and thank you for the chat. Take care of you 🙏✔️☺️

@Anastasia thanks for sharing with me, I really just, ugh, no. No to the lucky remark. What happened to you should not have happened. It should never happen. And I'm sorry it did happen to you too. If you ever wanna talk about it, I'm here. Don't deny yourself in acknowledging what happened and what you went through. You deserve to acknowledge it and heal from the past just as we all do .

I'm not going lie @Anastasia I'm a little drunk and trying very hard to make my words make sense but not sure if that's happening. I get drunk a lot, there's something about me.

I'm so sorry your son is going through so much. Do you mind if I ask how old he is? I really wish I could do something. I hope he can find the strength to get through this dark patch. I really hope so.

Growing up in fear; can relate to that. The hypervigilance thing has followed me to the present day. Funny story, got a new tattoo the other day and it's not the needle or pain that has me jumping. But when the guy taps me on the leg to get my attention, that has me jumping out of my skin. I don't do well with people touching me. Funny funny stuff. Fun Fun Fun

Night @Anastasia good to talk to ya

So not fair, hey @saltandpepper thank you for your kindness.

Sorry you jump, I get it. Again, not fair.

Your words are fine, wouldn't have picked you'd had a few but then my happy pills working, needed it tonight. Think I'm a bit broken right now.

Anyhoo just wanted to acknowledge your message. Yes, my son has to...no other choice that I can bear to think about but he's a danger to himself at present. He's 20.

Be kind to you, you're worth it, I can tell. I've subscribed to your thread to stay in touch. Sleep easy my new friend 💤🛌🙏

Yeah of course you would be @Anastasia nothing worse than when your kid is in pain. Ugh, happy pills, you've gotta share them with me now. Made it sound too good.

Jesus's, so very young. It gets better kid. It gets better. I really hope he keeps fighting. I wish I could say or do something that would make a difference. But I can't. But I'm here @Anastasia any time you need a chat.

And the auto correct on my work phone has finally made itself useful in correcting all of my drunken blunders haha

I feel for you a lot @Anastasia it must be heartbreaking seeing your son in such pain. As a mum you want to protect your children from any type of harm. Good on you for going further with this.

Hey @saltandpepper

I am not bad Thsnks. I worked yesterday 10-7. Very long shift causing terrible lower back pain. I came home, ate dinner that hubby cooked and straight in a bath with magnesium salts. Ah thst was good. Today I'm home so I think a walk and maybe Netflix shows today.
How are you? any plans for today?
oh yeah I'm in a 7 day lockdown. Not happy.