its me with the problems.

Hi @Tarnia, that's a pretty significant insight you've just reached and shared. It never ceases to amaze me at how we can hide from ourselves at times. I guess it's the iceberg thing - sometimes it's enough to just be dealing with the top 10% of oursevles and our lives. Digging deeper into the parts that exist below the surface can be pretty challenging.

Any thoughts about what you might do with this discovery? It's great that you are seeing your husband slowly get better. Does that give you hope that with time and the right support/treatment you can too? But I wonder, if you're the rock, will you allow yourself to be helped?

It's great that your husband and son are getting treatment @Tarnia. There's certainly comfort to be had in that. But if you are right about the trauma, then your needs can't always be last. Could you get the next appointment with the GP, as you'll be there anyway, get your own mental health care plan? Perhaps you and your son can heal at the same time.

Hello @Tarnia you've survived and its amazing you've come through so many issues and great sign of your inner strength. I was very introverted, shy and submitted to everyone when I was young. Having children taught me to hang onto their agenda .. and sort it out .. with the teachers etc. It was a necessary and natural part of being a mother to overcome shyness.

You do sound lonely and catching up with a doctor to get a care plan with a psychologist would help a lot. Often I cant drive and so am getting around more and more by walking and public transport. Your littlies are small still but slowly the world will open up. Maybe it will help your son knowing that your both travelling along similar paths.

From what I can tell everybody has problems, just some are better at hiding them than others, dont be hard on yourself. You have achieved a lot already.