Bellarose75Senior Contributor
What’s next?
Sitting here listening to the bird noises (I would like to say bird song but there is too many different sounds) As I said in my getting start post, I have hit rock bottom and slipped into a crack and it has me wondering what now! I know the only way is up (as I sing that one line from a song I can't remember the rest of the words too) In my last session I finally got it, the only hand that can pull me out is my own and that scares me due to the lack of faith, well the lack of anything in myself to succeed.
So here I am, stripped raw not a memory left unexplored (that I am aware of) no secrets hidden. Now I get to start again, putting it all back together bit by bit. I know there will be lots of times I may fall backwards but I am hoping that I won't get stuck there.
Clover has finally settled and has retreated to the chair to sleep - thank goodness - she makes me feel tired with all her energy lol I am looking forward to being with all the fur babies this weekend though - they do give me so much pleasure 
...blanket, thermos and hand warmers all with me 
I can't believe I used to sit in that weather each week to watch the footy - now I just freeze in the cold ...much prefer the warmer weather and struggle through winter here - but love our state and my home so will not move. Luckily I have in-built warmers in my fur babies - the colder it gets, the snugglier they get so it is a win really.
