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Something’s not right

What’s next?

Bellarose75Senior Contributor17 Mar 2021, 7:52 am AEDT

What’s next?

Sitting here listening to the bird noises (I would like to say bird song but there is too many different sounds) As I said in my getting start post, I have hit rock bottom and slipped into a crack and it has me wondering what now! I know the only way is up (as I sing that one line from a song I can't remember the rest of the words too) In my last session I finally got it, the only hand that can pull me out is my own and that scares me due to the lack of faith, well the lack of anything in myself to succeed.

So here I am, stripped raw not a memory left unexplored (that I am aware of) no secrets hidden. Now I get to start again, putting it all back together bit by bit. I know there will be lots of times I may fall backwards but I am hoping that I won't get stuck there.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 5:50 pm AEST

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@Lee82 I go about 4 times a week twice a week with support worker and the other times with daughter. Since my neighbour left my early morning walks have taken a back seat as where I live it is a bit dodgy to say the least to walk alone at 4.30.

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Lee82Senior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:01 pm AEST

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Wow pea. That is amazing. So wonderful to hear hun. Good on you.
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BunniekinsSenior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:05 pm AEST

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@Lee82 You are so sweet Lee82 thank you:). I wish life was treating you kinder ..... hugs and hugs my friend 🙂

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Lee82Senior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:08 pm AEST

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Thank you sweets so very much. I am just over it all. I don't have anything left.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:11 pm AEST

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@Lee82 yes I can definately appreciate that. I dont know what the answer is though .... funny I tried to express it earlier in the worry room but the moderator (fair enough) thought what I wrote was against guidelines ..... makes it hard when you want to discuss it all though and are unable without the fear of being locked away in some mental health ward.

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Lee82Senior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:14 pm AEST

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Oh pea you have read my mind. I feel the same way. It's so hard when you have to be careful with what you say. I know the things I want to say and discuss with my psych would definitely get me into a psych ward but the burden of having all these feelings and emotions bottled up is not good. I feel like a pressure cooker.
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BunniekinsSenior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:19 pm AEST

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@Lee82 Have you got anyone close that you can trust with your inner most feelings etc? I have family but I cant they would never forgive me and hate me forever so I have to live with it .... suck it up pea ....

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Lee82Senior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:28 pm AEST

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No pea. Like you I have no one I can trust. All alone here irl.
we should not have to suck it up hun.
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BunniekinsSenior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:38 pm AEST

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@Lee82 Hugs and hugs Lee82. My eyes started getting wet when I read your words. Thing is so many people think I should..... You are a good person Lee82. I wish you had someone close. Maybe one day if I ever trust I will say those words I keep close to my chest.

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Lee82Senior Contributor20 Apr 2021, 6:52 pm AEST

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I get that said to me all the time too hun. I know how you feel. 😢

you can trust me hun. I am always here for you no matter what.
@Bunniekins ❤️

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