@Appleblossom , thank you. When I can get downstairs to my room I find that all my worries generally melt away pouring out in my art work. The idea of having a job to sort out emotions and music sounds interesting.
@Anastasia , Thanks beautiful. I really enjoy what I do when I can. How are you doing today? How is your boy doing?
@Bunniekins , my little pea, girl you are too sweet. Love ya
@Lee82 , it really sucks that all this is happening for you. Your boys don't hate you, they are confused, they are scared that they are going to
lose their mum. They are young and anger is the easiest emotion to accept. Once you have some more treatment and get back at least to where you were before this they will see how hard your trying. The issues with the boys will work themselves out in due time. Not having anyone irl has got to be hard, but you know what is going to change that when you put yourself first and work to be healthier. I hope this doesn't upset babe as it is never my intention to upset. I have only just learnt in the past two weeks that the only one who can help me get better is me and that is totally freaking scaring the hell out of me as I never ever looked after myself, never ever thought that someone couldn't save me. So while I have people around me they are essentially body guards they can't do the work for me, they don't have the magic pill or touch, no knight in shinning armour can save me. I am scared beyond believe and not sure if I can do this but I am going to try. I know that you can have a better life because I refuse to entertain anything else, your a my best friend and my BFF gets a long happy life not if's or buts. YOU ARE WORTHY YOU CAN DO THIS
YOU ARE LOVED AND WANTED
