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What’s next?

Bellarose75Senior Contributor17 Mar 2021, 7:52 am AEDT

What’s next?

Sitting here listening to the bird noises (I would like to say bird song but there is too many different sounds) As I said in my getting start post, I have hit rock bottom and slipped into a crack and it has me wondering what now! I know the only way is up (as I sing that one line from a song I can't remember the rest of the words too) In my last session I finally got it, the only hand that can pull me out is my own and that scares me due to the lack of faith, well the lack of anything in myself to succeed.

So here I am, stripped raw not a memory left unexplored (that I am aware of) no secrets hidden. Now I get to start again, putting it all back together bit by bit. I know there will be lots of times I may fall backwards but I am hoping that I won't get stuck there.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 6:16 am AEST

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@Lee82 I missed your original post re how things are so tough for you atm I really hope things improve you deserve that. Have a wonderful Tuesday. Love peaxxx

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Bellarose75Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 7:17 pm AEST

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Your BFF senses need to be turned off so you can focus on getting yourself out of the darkness and back to the light. I miss you terribly but want you to heal and come back to us when you are able. I love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

Things are kinda rough here, learning new strategies and a whole different approach to living with DID. My new psychologist has turned my world upside down with her way of treating my mental health. It's a good thing but it challenging everyday and exhausting which is why I am not here offen.

My wonderful Em, Anistasia, Greenpea, Zoe, Eve, Outlander, Sans missing you all heaps. Sending you all love and light amd hoping you are all having a calm night.

@Emelia8 @Anastasia @Bunniekins @outlander @Eve7 @Zoe7 @Sans911

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Zoe7Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 7:20 pm AEST

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@Bellarose75 💖💖💖

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 7:27 pm AEST

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@Bellarose75 so good to hear from you just check in when you can. Dont forget peax

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Emelia8Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 7:31 pm AEST

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Hello dear @Bellarose75 😄💕

Really hope this new approach to DID, taken by your psych, works for you. Sounds like its taking a heavy toll in the short term, but hopefullt the long term benefits are there for you. Keep doing whats right for you, and your occasional check in here is much appreciated. Take care my dear friend.

Thinking of you too @Lee82 . Is it an option to leave your boys with your brother when you are in hospital? I'm sure he would be very happy to help in any way possible. Then you are not relying on your mother. Just a thought. I really want you to get the help you need, so trying to come up with ideas. Sorry if its a silly suggestion.

Emelia 💞

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Lee82Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 9:53 pm AEST

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Hey pea. Thank you so much for your message. I hope you are doing well my friend.
sending you hugs and love ❤️
@Bunniekins

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outlanderSenior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 9:54 pm AEST

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@Lee82 @Bellarose75
Sending you both love and hugs 💕

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Lee82Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 10:00 pm AEST

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My love so happy to hear you are trying new ways to cope with DID. I really and truly hope it works for you. I know it is going to be a very long and rough journey but I also know you got this.
I am always here for you beautiful. My BFF sensor can never be turned off my love. Not matter what is going on for me I will always be thinking of you and worrying about you hoping you are doing ok. I miss you so very very much. It is very lonely and scary in my dark hole.
love you to the moon and back babe. Sending you all my love and lots of gentle hugs.
❤️🧡💙💜💚💛❤️

@Bellarose75

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Lee82Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 10:08 pm AEST

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Hey my wonderful friend. How have things been going for you and hubby? I am so very sorry I am not up to date with what has been going on for you. Feel like a terrible friend.
that was definitely not a silly suggestion beautiful. That's a great suggestion, however my brother would have to take 4 weeks off work as he would have to move in to my place because he would need to take the boys to school and pick them up and he lives too far away and also has no room for my boys to stay with him.
I just don't see how any of it can work without throwing my kids to the wolves and I am just not willing to do that to them. I just need to try and accept that it's done.

I want you to know that I do think about you a lot my friend and I hope you are doing ok.

sending you lots of love and hugs gorgeous

❤️💚💜💛🧡💙❤️ @Emelia8

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Lee82Senior Contributor13 Apr 2021, 10:09 pm AEST

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Hey little one. Hope you are coping ok my friend.
@outlander

sending you love and hugs

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