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What’s next?

Bellarose75Senior Contributor17 Mar 2021, 7:52 am AEDT

What’s next?

Sitting here listening to the bird noises (I would like to say bird song but there is too many different sounds) As I said in my getting start post, I have hit rock bottom and slipped into a crack and it has me wondering what now! I know the only way is up (as I sing that one line from a song I can't remember the rest of the words too) In my last session I finally got it, the only hand that can pull me out is my own and that scares me due to the lack of faith, well the lack of anything in myself to succeed.

So here I am, stripped raw not a memory left unexplored (that I am aware of) no secrets hidden. Now I get to start again, putting it all back together bit by bit. I know there will be lots of times I may fall backwards but I am hoping that I won't get stuck there.

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destructiveSenior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 8:50 pm AEDT

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Hi @Bellarose75 @I did read the post but my brain is weird tonight. I agree, about the thing about people saying something won't happen just because it hasn't yet. And also when you're healing from trauma it doesn't just happen. It literally changes your brain so that takes a long time to undo

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 9:27 pm AEDT

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Thank you @Bellarose75

I don't feel strong, I feel like screaming and stomping my feet right now, so thank you x

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Bellarose75Senior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 10:08 pm AEDT

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@Anastasia , it is ok to feel like that my dear friend. We all get to that point. Express your feelings somehow, try screaming into a pillow or punching the sh*t out the pillow. Keeping it in is never the answer. Sending you love, hugs and all the strength I can spare. I know you got this honey

@Lee82 , yes it was lovely to chat with him. Haven't laughed in a long time and it was nice feeling.

@destructive , ❤️

@Zoe7 , Down south seems to coping it, up here it we are having rain but nothing to bad yet. Hopefully when it heads your way it's not to bad

@MDT , anytime friend. I hope you are well.

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 10:14 pm AEDT

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@Bellarose75

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Unknown userMember22 Mar 2021, 4:21 pm AEDT

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hey y'all.

i'm really tired. for a few weeks ago, we were suddenly really motivated, and we figured out the system and we all mapped things out. but now im just tired. i have no motivation to deal with any of them, and i kinda wish they'd all just go away.

i feel like its my fault, since i went dormant for months and missed all that.

just needed a mini-rant. that's all. byeee

- fiction

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Zoe7Senior Contributor22 Mar 2021, 7:00 pm AEDT

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Expecting rain over the next 3 days @Bellarose75 but then clear again so it seems we are luckily missing the worst of what everyone else on the east coast are suffering through.