Rainy Day Self Reflection

its raining today and Ive spent the day drinking Iced coffee and thinking about lots of things mainly relationships and where Im heading personally which direction I am going,while feeling this way I watched a movie Called Amelia about Amelia Areheart and her life story her goals and travels things she acomplished ,my phones been buzzing alot today from potential online dates but Im staying true to the one Guy whove Ive gotten to know the most although we havnt met as yet ,Im trying to not have so much high expectations of myself ,take things a bit more calmly and slower although Id love to meet him real soon ,we will meet sooner rather than later,Ive had my first counselling session by phone which is good and since then I havnt been bragging as such about my personal problems,as for my personal safety while dating I do need to think more carefully about ways to keep myself safe just in case but I do want to meet this man probably for lunch in a few weeks time but till then Ill keep talking to him ,Im not so lovesick/infactuated like I was for a while,Ive eased up a bit,at the momment I am not really talkative to the few family who do know about him,Im figuring out my own thoughts and feelings and prefer to do that at a distance from family for the time being ,I geuss Im trying to understand myself more and learn what it is Im looking for in a man and from a man and maybe also looking at and thinking about what it is Im trying to find within myself,maybe freedom,a sense of bellonging but also a bit of reckless adventre with a man,for now its a quiet and resting weekend,Im more gaurded with my feelings,might watch another movie ,anyway hows everyone else going today?