Hello May14
Pleased that you decided to visit the forum, but sorry about the circumstances that brought you here.
I think that most of us on the forum feel pretty desperate, or just numb, at some time or another. Some of us more often than others. Unfortunately, the frequency of the feelings doesn't diminish the level of concern and distress that we feel at those times. Consequently, we do understand the severity and impact that those feelings can have when they turn up, whether only once or more often; but particularly when it is not usual for us to experience such feelings.
It can be difficult enough being away from home, family, and your usual friends, in the best of situations but it is to be expected that this “storm” makes the situation very much more difficult for you and other people in similar circumstances. It is natural to become fearful and anxious when our options are artificially restricted, as they are for you at the present time. I believe your reactions are very normal.
You have mentioned your partner, who you say is supportive. I hear from that that he understands your feelings most of the time but is dealing with the situation differently from the way that you are, and doesn't quite understand the way you are feeling about your position at the moment.
I know when traveling that there are more worries, concerns, and anxiety about simply living from day to day than we normally experience when we are closer to home. These feelings are very likely to be magnified in situations like the one you are facing as a result of the covid virus.
(I've taken your lead by using lower case for covid – it doesn't deserve the respect shown by using upper case letters).
This whole virus situation and the circumstances that you are experiencing are really not normal. I guess what I am saying is that in these extraordinary circumstances it is easily understood that we react in what may seem like extraordinary ways. People who live here have been stressed by these events. It is very reasonable in your situation to feel the effects even more strongly.
You say that you are “un-diagnosed”. If you were to have a physical injury, you would most likely visit a GP and have the injury assessed and treated in an appropriate way.
Since you are experiencing worries and anxiety as a result of extraordinary circumstances, I believe it is a very reasonable proposition that you seek medical assistance if you have the resources to do so. The appropriate attention and treatment you receive may well alleviate the feelings that are concerning you. Just the assurance from a doctor that you are otherwise ok may, in itself, be beneficial for you.
It is very likely, that with a little assistance, you will find yourself in a much better position.
The stressors, anxiety, and concerns about your health are very reasonable. I hope that you will be able to make the arrangements necessary to seek the support and reassurance that will be helpful for you at this time.
The members of this forum are here for mutual support. I notice that you have had four replies from people who, I am sure, as I do, wish you the best opportunity to enjoy your time here as much as you possibly can.
You are very welcome to have a look around at the various posts and we would be happy to “talk” with you more if you would like to do so.
With Best Wishes,
HenryX
