SorrowCasual Contributor
I'm new here.. introduction etc
I'm here because I can't do it so totally alone anymore, but i can't really trust anyone either, so its better to have a fake name/username and i know mine probably seems dumb idk but i just thought of the feeling state I'm in right now and wrote that. I let my son down. More on that maybe if i feel safe here down the track this is meant to just be me introducing myself. .i ramble on almost incoherently when my traumas brought up, i know it, im sorry. Anyway 3 things about myself : I'm am a dedicated loving mum who's failed in like almost everything my kids ever needed. I have mental illness. I love hard. I fail harder 🙃 I'm devastated by this fact. (Treat that as 1 thing) 2. I'm a creative, I can make extremely beautiful things & art but I've never been able to get and hold down a job for long. I am extremely lonely, literally/ physically/geographically & emotionally. Hi...
I think your username is good as a way of expressing how you feel. Your intro post is short by my standards, not at all rambly. The devastation from feelings of failure sound so painful. Many on the forum will relate to what you are to describing, and to feeling alone. The forum has helped many of us feel less isolated, being able to talk with others who can relate, even if we don't have the answers. Same here with the jobs. Not fitting the mould for whatever reason takes a toll. I too am a creative and have found it a huge lifeline in my life, not always easy but a huge blessing.
