spent the day depressed/emotionally frustrated

hi everyone it seems to be 2 steps forward then 2 steps back for me bad habits are hard to change in a matter of days ,even though I went for a drive yesterday and even though I had a bit of a talk to one family member my issues with communicating with family and my online dating tinder addiction is mostly still kept to myself,today was a family members birthday but I was stuck in my own frustrated mind today about my own problems so ended up sending birthday message later than usual ,also felt I am always messing up things with people in general ,my family then online dating and today when I needed someone just anyone to talk to cause I felt frustrated and depressed ,didnt do barely anything today and didnt bother having a shower till late afternoon,just kept going on tinder even though thats not making me happy now either,Im prioritising trying to family the good stuff but looking at myself lately Im really messing things up with people wether there strangers or family,one family member asked whats wrong and I shut down again said nothing ,mostly I just layed in bed today,another family member called and you geussed it I shut them down too as for the family member whos birthday it was today I didnt want to overshadow that so kept things happy and also did the same with another family member but yeah Im not really bothering or wanting to talk to people cause its all frustrating my family must be all confused cause Im acting diffrently towards everyone