@Powderfinger at this point I feel theres no point in trying to talk to anyone about my needs and how I feel ,I just messaged a family member to say theres nothing to talk about,Im just feeling done with trying to talk no one knows how much Ive been keeping to myself this week cause yeah I can look fine but I dont feel fine at the moment theres alot thats happend and all of it I kept to myself except for the forums and lifeline ,no wonder I tell myself that family is busy too busy cause at the moment they are and they just dont see whats happening with my thoughts and just everything,I had to force myself to eat today cause I dont feel like eating much today,Ive tried reaching out to a few different family members and all theyve said is things like Cant talk right now ,talk to me later ,sorry I havent been on facebook much,and ceya tomorow,ill just keep it to myself or talk to lifeline about everything but not by phone im done sending messages,Im done trying to make calls,im sick of using my phone sick of using I geuss these different outlets that I thought would have worked to get support but havent,Im also just very over tired,havent slept much at night for most of the week it might be just time for an afternoon nap ,I feel let down by others and myself and of course to family I must still seem ok cause I might be good at hiding how I feel and what I think from them and you know smile and laugh the few times they have seen me so its just time for a nap or music Im thankfull to have the forum friends I have so maybe Ill just rest for now thanks
