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ButterflyWingsSenior Contributor
Why am I back to feeling like I did yesterday? I was desperate, anxious, unsure if I'd even live to see the next day...thoughts of running away (to die) have returned. Triggered in part by a group Zoom catchup this afternoon where everyone is sad and feeling unsure.
It's dumb to say this but I'm not even sure I want to be better. This journey has gone on 39 years too long.
And then she types: help but doesn't want it. Confused.
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Eve7Senior Contributor
Please stay safe @ButterflyWings
You are important
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FizzpopCasual Contributor
Hi Butterflywings, I get you and there is no easy fix wish you could take a pill and it would sort itself out or if you had a broken leg it will heal and you get on with life, but with us its much worse you cant run away from your own thoughts, I have been battling with a string load of crap for the past 20 years and even though to everybody around me life doesnt seem that bad its hell for me. I wish i had the answer to your question coz I ask myself that everyday why why why but try and find joy in a small thing I look at my dog who is schnauzer and is very naughty but he knows when I feel crap like now lying right next to my chair, if i dont look at the small things I wont make it through the day.
Chin up you not the only one feeling like that and I hope tommorrow is better for you.
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ButterflyWingsSenior Contributor
@Eve7 Thank you friend.
@Fizzpop @@eI miss my furbaby, they're The Best Therapist! Presently I have strung some pretty lights up and turned them on to twinkle gently in my special room. I have my fav music and vaporiser with yum
The little things indeed. I'll be okay eventually.
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FizzpopCasual Contributor
Yeah you will and its the little things i just wish there was a quick fix which will never happen.
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Eve7Senior Contributor
Your special room sounds lovely @ButterflyWings and I really hope it has been helpful for you today.
🦋🦋🦋
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