My world is spinning too fast

I'm so terrified of telling anyone I'm bipolar. I feel like I'm looked at in a different way.

That sounds like an awful lot to deal with @Lightmama, and I can certainly understand and relate to the 'stop the world, I wanna get off' feeling! It's really tough watching loved ones struggling and not knowing how to or being able to help. It sounds like you've got some good strategies already with shifting your focus to work and your animals, though I'm wondering if you've got any ideas how else you might be able to slow things down a little? For me, my dogs are a great start, just sitting there and patting them, focusing on the feeling of their soft fur beneath my fingers really helps get me out of my head. Sometimes, they'll be able to tell I'm not doing great and approach me, almost like 'hey, I'm here if you want a hug or something'.

@Tralalajoyson the right people won't look at you differently. The others don't matter.

@Lightmama

you are amazing! I only have one to care for and this year has just about broken me.

I couldn't do what you're doing. Can you sneak a weekend away? Or a night, or just an afternoon?

Perhaps leave some suicide prevention phone numbers in your son's room to be on the safe side. Does he need a doctor?

All I have to say really is, I hear you, and you will find a lot of support here.

x