Hi @Rick147
I just wanted to reach out and welcome you to the forums! It’s great to have you here 
I can hear how worried you are
It’s such a difficult and scary place to be when we can’t make sense of some of the things that are happening for us 
In addition to the great ideas suggested by other forum members, I just wondered if you would feel comfortable asking your GP to refer you to a Psychiatrist? This may provide you with the opportunity to receive some answers to your questions and if necessary, the Psychiatrist may be able to provide some ongoing support 
Alternatively, you could ask your GP to refer you to a Psychiatrist for an ‘opinion and report’ (MBS item 291) which also attracts a Medicare rebate.
Basically, this is a one off appointment whereby a Psychiatrist completes an assessment and provides a written report to your GP which (if applicable) also includes a mental health diagnosis.
Although this is a one off appointment, it’s my understanding that you can attend two additional appointments if the Psychiatrist needs more time to complete their assessment.
If you would like to read some more information about this, you can visit the Royal Australian and New Zealand College of Psychiatrists.
Their website www.ranzcp.org
I also wondered if accessing some additional support through the Sane Help Centre may be helpful for you? Although the counsellors can’t provide a diagnosis, they can provide telephone and online counselling, information and referrals for people living with complex mental health issues and also for the people who care about them.
As such, you could talk through your experiences and concerns and explore some other ideas about how you could address these 
The Help Centre operates Monday to Friday from 10.00am until 10.00 pm (AEST) and you can contact them on: 1800 18 7263.
Their website is: www.sane.org
I hope this helps 
Take care,
ShiningStar 