(possible triggering topics) To expand upon why I am majorly skeptical of a lot of things

Just moved to Australia and am currently in quarantine, as I was forced to leave the original country I was in due to how if I didn't leave I would be forced into the foster system as a "minor" and that would be horrible again. I generally don't speak to professionals because from experience all they do is harm me, at one time I was forced to be insitutionalized or I'd be sent to juvie (honestly being punished with manual labor and cleaning for self harming and not complying with staff, among other things, was probably not better than juvie in some cases, though).

Because I'm supposedly "psychotic" and "delusional" apparently this means it's okay to deny me basic rights, from experience. This is one of the reasons why I've learned the skill of going through conversations nonchalantly and manipulating words so they cannot harm me, like I've learned the general questions healthcare professionals ask me (for example, the first thing that's usually asked is questions about if I'm hallucinating and if I'm experiencing psychosis because I refer to myself sometimes with we/us pronouns and we're plural) and how to provide non-answers so I don't get overmedicated again (but this isn't just with professionals, it's often the same with people in my life in general, from experience). And for the first 18 years of my life I have had no say in whatever healthcare professionals decide what's "right for me," because the legal system I was in basically gave all power to professionals and authority (patient advocates did not exist, and as a resident if you weren't a student and were unemployed you have even less rights than the average citizen - society doesn't usually care about you then, and the only "support" that is there for you directly involves behavioralism)

I know where I now am is in a different legal system and is different, but I don't expect it will be different, when that's all I know. And though the control makes sense to me, that doesn't excuse it.