How much longer can I keep on keeping on

Never in my wildest dreams did I think that my life would be this way, I worked hard made a good life, had success and was comfortable looking forward to grandchildren and retirement.

Then it happened my 14 yr old attempted suicide. She has since attempted 6 more times in the past 6 months. My life is hell, today is my birthday and woke up after another night of fear and torment wishing it was my last. I am starting to hate my daughter more than anything, she makes no effort to get well and seems to enjoy the destruction she is causing as if she is entitled to hurt me.

I'm at the point now where I have to look after myself. I live in fear that she will hurt me, the police are called every second day. She is constantly in hospital.

She self harms and has no shame in displaying her disgusting wounds, and poses for social media. Where she is joined by other people feeding off this life of disgrace. Yet I am the one who is shamed and embarrassed, I am the one who made to feel insignificant.

These children need to be locked away where they can't hurt anybody else. They are a shame to their families and a shame to society.

My little girl once had the best of everything, private school, overseas holidays her every hearts desire. But thanks to own indulgence and the evil that spills over the internet. My baby is now a monster to be feared and avoided.

I see stories where people suffer for decades that can not be my life i dont deserve this