AEBSenior Contributor
Child of emotional neglect
I’ve never known what a good strong healthy relationship looks like...I grew up witnessing my parents fight and usually being getting in between them. This often lead to getting hurt or punishment, usually in the form of a good belting. I was never able to speak up and always got shut down if I tried. So I learnt to just keep everything inside. I retreated so far back into myself that often my parents would have to check if I was even home. I struggle with speaking up about what I need and what I want now in my adult years. My partner often asks me what do I need or what can she do? All I can do is stare at her and cry. Then I usually get angry at myself for not speaking up and this makes her feel like I’m pushing her away. I need help with connecting with her and opening up more and not being so angry at myself. I just don’t know how or where to start.
