May23Senior Contributor
Broken and Lost
I feel broken ALL of the time. My family not only don't understand me or my mental issues but are so oblivious that they don't recognise how hurtful the "passing" comments they make are.
I drove to my parents place 5hrs away through great pain and stress (I have physical issues as well as suffering from anxiety and depression) but it's still not good enough for my family 😔 😞 😢.
My sister takes every opportunity to push my trigger buttons when we gather as a group, yet my reaction is always over the top according to the rest of my family. It doesn't seem to matter what I do it's never enough. They either treat me like I'm so fragile I will break or mock me for being "sensitive". I can't win.
Tonight I had a full blown panic attack following an attack from my sister. I was made to feel stupid and ashamed. I escaped outside as I felt I was suffocating. I fell and couldn't get up. It took almost an hour for mum to come find me. Since then I have been ignored while everyone else has carried on drinking and enjoying themselves as if i don't exist.
Will they ever understand me??????
