PartertryingCasual Contributor
Help - Partner with Depression
Good Evening
My partner suffers with Anxiety and Depression. I need help for myself. I am struggling myself trying to keep myself together, especially in lockdown because of COVID (Melbourne). maybe I am just seeking reassurance that what I am feeling is common and ok. His illness first surfaced in 2016... he was put on meds and seen a councillor and things got better, mid last year he had another breakdown, had time off and went back to work but has since had another breakdown in March. I was working in a really toxic environment and was having a hard time myself at the same time, I have since quit my job and trying to put myself back together. I am very supportive and have convinced him to talk to somebody to work out ways to deal with this and seek coping strategies. He says that he hates feeling this way but doesn't seem to want to fix the situation. All he does is either sit on the couch, sleep or drink alcohol. I find myself getting angry at him and resent him, I don't understand, if he hates feeling like this, why doesn't he do his best to fix the situation. I feel like I have to do everything, yesterday he couldn't even order Uber eats...sometimes I just want to shake him to somehow shake the depression away. I get angry because he shuts me out, I know it is all part of it, I get angry because he talks to everyone else about it but not me. His mum and dad provide no support so I am the support system. I just feel really angry about the whole thing, I hate the depression and I hate the fact that it infects the air with bad Energy, I feel at times it is infectious and I am constantly battling to not let the toxins affect me. I love him and want to see him well but sometimes I don't know if I can keep doing this.....I am trying to protect my 10 year old son from this but it is exhausting. I feel guilty for feeling like this.
Does anyone else feel like this.
