𝚃𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚘𝚕𝚍 a 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚋𝚒𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚊𝚛 𝚑𝚞𝚜𝚋𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚜𝚎𝚍.

I feel like I'm running out of help to give.
My husband was diagnosed with bipolar 10 years ago after a mental health hospital admission. He's since been mostly stable on meds until about 2 months ago he declined badly. Became suicidal, had a very well thought out and researched plan. His meds weren't working, he was starting to lose control over all his actions & I knew I was about to lose him. I took him to a hospital where he was admitted and started on new meds. They continue to increase one of the meds frequently (lithium) and each time they do, he has terrible side effects (irritability, anxiety, nausea, anger). His psychiatrist has been great, as too has his GP, but he hasn't yet seen a psychologist since the start of all of this. They keep canceling due to covid, their own illness & one was just busy! It's been almost 2 months and the improvements I started to see, have mostly gone. He seems to be going backwards. It's heart breaking to watch him go through this.

He's now had panics attacks and hallucinations that he never ever had before.
We are all suffering including our young child. Has anyone else been through anything similar?

We have a good network of friends and family who of course tell me I need to see a psychologist but I can't even get him into one yet. It's frustrating, scary and I'm not sure how long I can stay strong for.
I called the mental health crisis hotline today but got an answering machine. Will try again tomorrow
Thank you for hearing my story ♡︎