Cathtastrophe8New Contributor
Love sick adding to an already sick and sorry mind
Hi guys,
I was diagnosed with MDD and general anxiety disorder about 6 months after my father and brother died 5 years ago. I have since lost my job and struggled to find a new one/struggled to find anyone that will hire me. My boyfriend kept saying i obviously wasn't looking hard enough, or trying properly. But I was. He has since moved back to Ireland and said he wanted me to move over there to be with him. He drinks a lot, and since he's been back in Ireland I've noticed how much more often he gets absolutely trollied and will call and pick a fight with me, or not even pick a fight, just call and tell me I'm useless and pathetic. When I confront him about his cruel behaviour when he's sober he just dismisses it as 'being a goose'. He tells me not to bring it up again and stop 'bringing up the past' which is so unfair because that's all he ever does is bring up the past and throw my mistakes in my face. I feel like I will never be seen by him as an equal, like he will always look down on me, but I can't seem to shake how much I also love this man, and how much I am seriously considering moving to Ireland, despite every single instinct I have telling me I should know better and that it will be a disaster. So I feel kinda stuck in no-mans land, I'm here, missing him like crazy, despite feeling even sadder when I do hear from him. Anyone have any tips on what I should do? Should I cut contact with him for awhile?
I was diagnosed with MDD and general anxiety disorder about 6 months after my father and brother died 5 years ago. I have since lost my job and struggled to find a new one/struggled to find anyone that will hire me. My boyfriend kept saying i obviously wasn't looking hard enough, or trying properly. But I was. He has since moved back to Ireland and said he wanted me to move over there to be with him. He drinks a lot, and since he's been back in Ireland I've noticed how much more often he gets absolutely trollied and will call and pick a fight with me, or not even pick a fight, just call and tell me I'm useless and pathetic. When I confront him about his cruel behaviour when he's sober he just dismisses it as 'being a goose'. He tells me not to bring it up again and stop 'bringing up the past' which is so unfair because that's all he ever does is bring up the past and throw my mistakes in my face. I feel like I will never be seen by him as an equal, like he will always look down on me, but I can't seem to shake how much I also love this man, and how much I am seriously considering moving to Ireland, despite every single instinct I have telling me I should know better and that it will be a disaster. So I feel kinda stuck in no-mans land, I'm here, missing him like crazy, despite feeling even sadder when I do hear from him. Anyone have any tips on what I should do? Should I cut contact with him for awhile?
