bonsai_281Casual Contributor
Relationship under stress
Hi. I guess I just need someone to relate with. I'm in my late 30s and have a wonderful partner and 2 young toddlers. I've struggled with depression for about 10 years, been on medication on and off and counselling as well. My partner and I have been together for just over four years, and he has been very supportive of me. But lately, it has been harder for us to talk to each other. We're a military family, but that's not the issue.
For a long time I've been a tad of a recluse. I have a hard time going out on my own, never feeling safe outside the confines of my own house. I can go shopping for groceries and necessities but if you tell me to go out for a walk on my own and I could end up with a mini episode of a panic attack. This is one of the things that my partner struggles to come to terms with. He's very outdoorsy and feels like we can't share experiences because I don't want to go out. Going outside is exhausting to me both mentally and emotionally. And this is the tip of the ice berg. He doesn't understand, and I have a hard time explaining how it looks like in my head. He's tired, and doesn't want to hear it anymore. He says I'm all talk and no action... I feel like I just can't talk to him anymore.
