Freya5Casual Contributor
My best friend lost his battle with cancer
For the past 15months I've helplessly watched my friend suffer in pain & become so sick, just over a week ago he died. Even though I knew this was coming it has hit me so hard, I have spiraled into a deep depression. He was so young so full of life & still had so much more living to do. I couldn't help him I couldn't save him. He suffered & fought so hard but he lost his battle, cancer took my dear friend. I've never meet a more kindhearted beautiful soul he was perfect, life is so unfair, I feel like I have no idea how to go on in life without him I'm so so broken inside just getting out of bed each day is such a struggle, I wake every morning feeling extremely sad, he was an artist and so am I his last wish was for me to paint his coffin, it was the most confronting emotional beautiful experience of my life, I hope I did him proud. I haven't picked up a paint brush since & I feel like I'll never paint again & I know he'd be so sad about that, I really have no desire to do anything, I miss him so much I'm completely heartbroken.
