I am sorry to bother everyone yet again

@Eden1919

Hello, I know the feeling and much of what you have described, and some of it is not far from the truth that I experienced too, though much of the thoughts and anxiety and fear might also blown out of proportion and it won't help you to be anxious about them by making them into something more than what they are.

I always found psychologists much better than psychiatrists.

I can assure you that I am a real being from out in the world communicating with you online, many of the thoughts that you have arising is a busy mind and it would be good if you can try to not buy into them, they are only thoughts, beliefs and ideas, they have no power on thier own, and they may not be true at all.

Fear and anxiety is the result of a future oriented mind but the future doesn't exist right now, it only exists in the mind by thoughts in imagination.

I will keep this farely short and just suggest the direction that I know helped me,
There is a meditation technique called self-enquiry meditation (ramana maharshi) so if you are at a computer then I suggest that you look it up and try it out, it is a way to overcome a busy mind and end all suffering.
To enquire into those thoughts you have described and ask them "to whom has this thought arisen?" To get to the root of the weed and recognise that you are not your thoughts.

Feel free to also read any of my other posts, i'm sure something there will be relevant and helpful.

Stay strong, these fearful and hard times won't last.
You will be free from the system before too long.

Namaskaram,

Guiding_Light

@Guiding_Light I am sorry your post has really confused me.... I know it isn’t helpful to be anxious but that doesn’t stop me from feeling anxious..... also I know I am not my thoughts but these are not all my thoughts anyway that is half the problem.... meditation is not super helpful for me it normally makes me panic more at least when I feel like this is does. The future does exist but time is a hard concept but it is all the same time everything is in a time I don’t know how to explain it but the future and present are kind of like the same and when you say I will be free from the system which system do you mean? Whose system? And a real being doesn’t mean human being but also you didn’t say what world and maybe I didn’t explain that well that is probably my fault. I am really confused now...

@Eden1919
I know what you mean about time,
but future is determined by the present, and the future never comes, no-one ever experienced a tomorrow.

The present moment is always a life saver out of any troubles because the past and future don't exist right now, they only exist in the mind by memory and imagination, I get the sense that you are refering to all times and parralel earth/realities existing right now which is true, and that's why there only ever is presence, but the idea of "future" and "past" as somewhere else only exist in the mind as memory and imagination, the present moment is always a blank canvas to paint what we want.

everything you see and experience around you is the result of past thoughts emotions and behaviours.
anxiety is the result of a future oriented mind of "what may happen" not what is happening.

As for the voices and thoughts you are experiencing the belief itself that "they are not my own" may be the very belief and thought which blocks and makes you think and percieve them as not your own and it may not be true, so you can question that within yourself, you will know best.

I was refering to the psych system.
I'm sorry if you are confused, confusion though may be a good thing because it's a sign of the beginnings of transformation.

I will stay out of it unless you ask, i'm only trying to help and if it's not serving you then don't worry about it.

All the best,
Namaskaram,

Guiding_Light

Very tough times. I don't know much about your type of situation. I have been through very hard times too. It was hard but trusting my shrink got me through. I wasn't able to trust him totally. But I trusted him enough. Hang on till you see him or her. Peace to you.

WriterMelb.

Hi @Eden1919

Sounds like you have a lot going on at the moment.

I don't go through the same things as you do but please don't be sorry. You are not a bother and deserve to be heard and supported like everyone on here.

I think trusting in your psychiatrist might be helpful for you. It does take time to trust our supports and take their advice but perhaps trusting in them can help with all that you are going through.

I am also glad to hear that you are safe.

Please keep reaching out for support on here and in real life, as hard as that might be for you.

Lots of love

Snowie ❤