GeminiLion Diaries

Im doing better than the other day after I had a series of negative events in one day. Two of which I took further by making complaints about (1. Post surgery issue. 2. Customer service issue).

My GP said that specialist would not have been angry at me but at the Radiography for not doing the requested procedure order.

And while I didnt get an apology for bad customer service, the woman provided some explanation, yet twist her words to make herself sound better. I have a letter pre-written for senior CEO. Not sure to send it or not. I spent lots with the company and will no longer do my business with them for products they supply.

Im doing okay. Same as normal. Im very structured person so annoys me when things dont go to plan. But I can deal with that.

Thankyou for listening

Hi @GeminiLion , it's a good idea to make a thread for you to focus on. Well done for being brave to post. And for the very clear thread title so we all know where you are.

That's good you're doing better then the other day, too. 🙂

Tommorrow will mark 650 sober. Not even interested in drop. I had short periods before and relapse, so I know how hard it is. This time its for good.

I asked a help site for guidance and got the computer responses after a long long long wait. My last correspondence was explaining Im 1500km from their recommendation. I feel like this repeat preformance. Why did I ask?

Im doing okay. Better than I once was. Struggling for motuvation

650 days AF.

Told some people via appriopriate sites/app. Response was okay. Nothing great. No family (not that I anyone close) knows, and even my dad doesnt know. Maybe I shouldnt care and just accept it.

Congrats @GeminiLion Thats getting on to the 2 year mark. I have had different struggles but know its a HUGE achievement to put an addictive habit behind.

Like your thoughtful posts.

Cheers Apple

Another Sunday. Its my day off from caring (dad) *trying to get weds too but no luck yet. A little behind but can catch up.

Day didnt start too well. I have a terrible habit reading news and adding comments. Usually I block where I can but this isnt always able. And Im the positive thoughtful commentator with references to support. But alike this morning got some bad miserable reactions. My pyschologist explain ,and I now accept that its usually people who dont like someone else having a say, and it can be due to character or education / intellectual level. Personally, I need to stop writting on those types of reels or articles. Im actually enjoying old fashion letters to editor writing more. Well 9:40am and Im behind but can catch up. Focus on painting today. Thanks to anyone reading for friendship.

Not sure if anyone is reading this/these as there been no recent support or comment.

I had one of those weeks where I have been chasing my tail. I am so behind it is no joke. And frustrating. All I been doing is running around with my head cut-off for dad whom I care. It has been much more busier with Covid. And I am not ready to allow him free into the community. Because doctor's appointments and other business appointments spread out today, I trialled him in some more busier areas. I'm like a mother slapping his hands etc lol. I got myself in rhythm now but dad doesnt think about surfaces or social distancing etc. It was very stressful today!

So another week is lost and I am further behind with my own workloads and projects. Good news is clear schedule until next Friday. But I have had many free days before and before I wink something happens.

Other things too but I will deal with those as usual (loneliness, anxiety, etc). In case I am writting a personal diary and no one reads I will get off now.

I dont think anyone reading but Ill feel better writing. I have been going to update/write for days and just bottle everything up.

Local papers are ending in regional areas and while there will be digital (at massive increase price mind you) it is not the same as finding out little things in the community, notices, puzzles, info etc etc. Huge loss and everyone is angry. They are merging 3 papers into one and the main paper is going digital only. The online platform is badly arranged and messy and unuseful. Ive cancelled my subscription.

Next, Despite having days not so busy Im still further behind with my community art project (well my contribution anyway). With Covid, my caring responsibilities have gotten even worse. I want a pay increase lol! And dad get funny and grumpy being in lockdown. Im yet to slowly release him into community slowly. Even the little bits of intro he has habit of touching everything, other people, and therefore become stressful. I leave him in the car for 5 mins, come back and where is dad, walking around the carpark looking at cars and touching them (he is deaf so an alarm goes off he wont hear it LOL). But thats an example.

And, I am still struggling with my art. Feel like Im yesterday celebrity. Not having dedicated studio does not help. I want extra days off from dad. At moment its only Sunday (then he wants something). I want to find that passion again. Avoiding fb because everyone passing me now when I use to be advance. So depressing. Hard to explain.

Probably wasted my time writting this down.

Howdy.

I will feel better/habit thing to say huge thankyou for the voucher.

I have ditched social media (down a massive 98% guess). Even ditching social-like apps or sites. I am not suffering fomo. I am feeling greatly stressfree and more time. My next phase is no more simcity (lol) except bedtime so I dont look for ebay bargain opportunities (again lol) at midnight. Focusing on my art. Not paniking but elecated concern about an exhibition I am putting together. Lol! its my own contribution - worry when the project manager has his own artwork behind schedule. Whole reason why I am doing the project was to get "experience" and something to put on my cv as well as volunteering back to the community. Tbh, I have realise that I am still not coping with worry (not stress but "worry" i.e. having bad thoughts about the future).

I started Upward course which is covering old theory I already know but its helping to revise. I havent seen my pyschologist since begining of the year in fear of Covid (last time there her secretary was sick! which spook me). Mind you no one contacted me... glad to see I am being missed 😕 its all good. Not much more theory side we can do and is really just checkups now. And I am doing soo much better now. Thinking about the future etc.

Take care 🙂 ❤️