Post interview Jitters

Hi Everyone,

Well i completed my first face to face interview (plus x2 roleplays) today which was my first interview in over 22 years (i previously worked a long time in local government before i resigned due to mental health hospitalisation).

I can honestly say the role play was confronting as i had emotionally charged people up in my face swearing trying to get a negative reaction from me. As for the interview i managed that ok i thought having been through the role palys beforehand!

As the dust has settled after a few hours my destructive BPD kicks in and rational thoughts are a distant memory. If i dont sleep well tonight its a sign that im in trouble, but i do have a meeting with my case manager later this week which may help.

How do you guys cope when destructive behavior threatens to show its face? Ive tried keeping busy, changing routine, developing a routine, talking to people... but i feel at times that i can become a burden and i worry those close to me way to much?