@skyburial wrote:
I'm not sure if you know the video game "Animal Crossing" but that game brings these feelings up as well, which is very weird.
I've never played it, but I'm loosely familiar with it. Is it the whole game that brings up these feelings for you, or just certain aspects of it? Do you feel differantly about the interactions between yourself and the NPCs then you do about player-to-player in-game interactions?
@skyburial wrote:
@chibam
I have no idea where this issue stems from, but I've recently linked it very loosely to my issue with pride, I'm not religious but pride (it happens to be a sin as well) bothers me a whole lot.
I've also very recently realised that every interaction I have is completely empty, well it seems to go well on their end, but from my end it feels very empty and I don't know if that may be a reason why I see it as "immoral".
I think I can understand that. I, too, see unflatterring connections between self-confidance/pride and interactions. A lot of the bad encounters I've had with others have been fuelled by the other person's pride. There were always these connotations that I should act greatful/blessed to be "graced with their presence", and there were always punishments to follow if I failed to convincingly pretend that I was delighted to have had to endure them for whatever length of time they had decided to haunt me.
I also can't ignore the fact that my own pride/self-confidance has done a lot of dammage as well. Once upon a time, I believed that I was strong enough to make a differance, to make the world a better place. But I was wrong about everything. I was too self-confidant. In the end, my interacting with others only ever did more dammage, I think.
IMHO, so many of us (i.e. humans) seem to genuinely believe that we are god's gift to humanity, when really we are a massive drain on everybody who has the misfortune to know us. So yeah, I get how one can see a connection between self-confidance/pride and an immorality in human interaction.
And I can understand why you see a connection between empty interactions and immorality.
Image you trudged all the way up a steep hill to fetch a bucket of water from a well, but by the time you got home you discovered all you had to show for it was an empty bucket. You would feel "wronged", wouldn't you? You would instincively feel that they whole ordeal was "wrong".
Most of us have an internal moral code where we believe that hard work ought to be repaid with justified reward. When that reward doesn't come, we feel cheated, we feel wronged. So when we interact with others and we get nothing out of it - or when the encounter is "empty" (to use your words), it makes sense that the whole process would seem "wrong"; just as if we fed $5 into a vending machine and nothing came out - that would feel "wrong", too, wouldn't it?
