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Have to be up in 4 hours but don't want to go to bed. I am having regular nightmares, but at my session yesterday I started running a flashback and it's like a bad film running over and over. It is of what might have been the worst sexual assault I ever experienced and I was only 6. I would rather die then fall asleep and actually be in that film. I know if I sleep it will be as if I am 6 again and I will feel it and I will wake with all the pain.
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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor
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frogSenior Contributor
Hi @Former-Member just wanted to say hi and I read your post.
That's such an awful thing to deal with.
I have an app (Calm) that plays sleep stories and soundscapes which sometimes helps me replace difficult images and thoughts and get some sleep. Might be worth a try.
Thinking of you.
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@frog
thank you, I will look for that app. Sleep took me last night/this morning and it was as bad as I knew it would be😞
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Thank you I have saved those links to look at later. I am scared tonight the suicidal thoughts have been very strong and persistent today. I have had to change gps this week as mine had been isolated because of his own health issues, so that freaks me out as I have only recently told him about my DID. My psychologist is away and I have a wonderful counsellor who goes above and beyond anything I have ever experienced before. I don't want to die but this darkness is deep , I can't keep up the pretense that my life is ok or even worth it.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
hello and hugs @Former-Member , @outlander , @frog , @The-red-centaur 
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frogSenior Contributor
Hello @Shaz51 and big thanks for the hugs
Hi @Former-Member @outlander @The-red-centaur thinking of all of you
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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
Hey @Former-Member sorry to barge on in here, but I wanted to let you know--if I haven't done so already--there is a site called HAVOCA which is solely for adult survivors of child abuse. There's a forum section and chat feature and everyone I've spoken to on there has been amazing. Just a world of support waiting over there. It's not as active as this site, but the people there are just top notch.
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