I fired my psychiatrist!

Hi @Queenie

I'm sorry you had to resort to that and that your mental health is getting worse.

But I am glad you have the support of your gp, she seems to be on the sae page as you.

I hope you find another pdoc soon, I know how hard it can be to find a good one.

Hi @Queenie I can hear you are struggling at the moment. Sending my best wishes that you can find a new psychiatrist soon. Very glad to hear your GP is supporting you through this. And also that you still have insight into what's happening for you. Thinking of you and sending warm wishes xx

@Queenie Hey Queenie good to have you back :D. My pdoc is great but will only keep me on if I take my meds ..... if not onto the public I go with depot injections. All of which scares e to death. So here I am being a good pea doing as i am told and living in fear of losing my pdoc.

That's so #%@&ing frustrating @Queenie I'm sorry to hear it.

Sounds like the GP is a keeper though,

Just wanted to pop in and update everyone on my situation.

I've been sliding down that slippery dip a fair bit of late. The other night I hallucinated something truly terrifying, and although that hallucination has passed, it has me understandably rattled to say the least.

I did hear back from my old psychiatrist after my support worker's manager phoned and said he was neglecting his duty of care (and he was!). I've since had medication increased and am doing a little better now. I still have fired him however.

I found a new psychiatrist, who although he has closed his books, is willing to take me on. He doesn't charge the earth and has admitting rights to a different hospital than I've been in before. I'm nervous about meeting him, I really am and I am not sure why. Even typing this has my anxiety flaring up.

I hope he has ways to break the ice with me as I am always really frightened of authority figures (I think I've said that before).

Good Luck with the new guy. @Queenie

I used to see them as authority figures, not surprising considering their sense of power over my loved ones from a very early age, but not any more. For me they are just people now. Public Servants in fact. You deserve good care and all people should do their jobs properly. Especially when they are so well remunerated ....

Locus of control ... I outsource mine a lot when I am with a person, but gradually as I become older, I am not giving it all away.

Hugs Bella. You have been through a lot.

Hope it all goes well with the new pdoc @Queenie

I think feeling nervous to meet a new pdoc is a totally normal thing. I remember lots of different emotions swirling around when I meet my most recent pdoc.

Glad you are doing a little better, thanks for keeping us up to date.

Love and hugs

Snowie

All my warmest wishes to you @Queenie The new psychiatrist sounds promising. When I'm going to start with someone new I start making notes at least a few days beforehand about things I might talk about with them - maybe that would help. You can take a list in with you, and sometimes I've just walked in and handed over the list so they can get a picture of what I'm dealing with without me having to talk it all and use up all the time. I very much hope it goes well for you and you can have a good rapport with them. Really glad for you that things have settled a little since earlier in the month. I've been thinking of you.

Thank you to everyone who has replied and shown support to me through this time,

@frog @outlander @Appleblossom @Snowie @eth. I think I will write out a short report of what has been happening to me or at least take some discharge summaries with me from my last admission 3 1/2 months ago and might get my GP to email the new psychiatrist copies of my psychiatrist's discharge summary from the same admission. That way he has documented evidence from a qualified mental health professional that I do indeed have that diagnosis (paranoid schizophrenia, anxiety and depression) rather than him simply relying upon my GP.

I am still nervous but think I will take headphones with me to listen to music to calm me down until the appointment. The appointment is at a major hospital in the city, but at least we'll have parking sorted out, as in light of recent health concerns of the population, we are not taking public transportation.