LostandaloneSenior Contributor
anxiety and stress levels through the roof
I really dont know how much more I can take
Just when I think I am on the up... something happens and i go spiralling further down... it is very much a case of one step forward... 10 steps back.
I have just moved from my long term family home.. and that certainly didnt come easily or without problems.. which was a HUGE stress. to add to all of this I have also been having alot of trouble at work with what can only be described as victimisation and work place bullying for the last few months
I feel like I am drowing... I just want to go to sleep and never wake up... I am constantly on edge and shaking like a leaf.. i can think straight... I cant function
Yesterday I went back to work after having a week off to move house... I was feeling ok.. not great but ok... about an hour in I was called up to HR to be told that I was being sent home because over the last few months... (when I have been having the work place issues)... my mental health had suffered and I had mentioned that it was possibly making me feel suicidal.(even though I dont think I would carry out anything)... so they did not think I was fit to be at work and I was not to return until I could get a letter from a psychologist saying I was fit to be there...
This has sent me spiralling again... and all I want to do is cry... sleep and hide away from everyone and everything. I wonder why I even bother anymore
I just wish they would leave me alone and let me get on with things