BPD

Hi @Former-Member

It certainly sounds like you are going through a very tough time at the moment, and that it hasn;t been helped by receiving this diagnosis. However it does sound like some preconceived notions of what BPD is or means are colouring the situation and making it a lot worse: your diagnosis is not a death or even a life sentence, and it certainly doesn't mean you are the worst person in existence, but perhaps someone who struggles with existence in a particular way.

It's good to hear that you are in a safe place, and I'd encourage you to keep the lines of communication open. Keep posting, and perhaps speak to the workers in the facility about how you are going at the moment.

Regards,

theposterboy

Hi @Former-Member and welcome to the forum. Really sorry to hear you're going through what you are at the moment. It's so hard to be at the end and to see few/no reasons to stay alive

You said above that you need someone to tell you there is hope or a future. I believe there is. I see and hear of people with all kinds of mental health challenges living life with meaning, purpose and enjoyment. There might be hard (really hard) times and it might be wonky (very wonky sometimes) but it's possible.

There's some fabulous info and stories on BPD here and on the SANE website if you'd like to have a look and read some hopeful stories. There's one here on living with BPD and another on 5 things people get wrong about BPD . There's also a recent blog post on BPD and relationships that I enjoyed reading.

Part of recovery that I understand to be important, is having a strong support network. It has taken me a while to get mine happening but it's been worth it. Do you have much in the way of support?

Keep posting if it's helpful. You'll find lots of people here who have experienced really dark and hard times and lots of people who find ways through it and are glad they have.

First off. Not sure which person checker works what shift. But so many of those words you used would been not have been approved sunday night here.

You are certainly normal. We all are. It does not matter about backgrounds, flaws or successes.

You need to speak to a psychologist face to face. So they can work on specifics. They not only listen but give you activities to train the brain to think about life differently. From my experience, consider recommendations. Weekly then fortnightly. I myself now just attend monthly as a check in. Pyschologist are more experienced than counsellor. Not to be confused with psychiatrist.

Anyway. Sounds like you are in safe situation at time of writing even when you did not believe it. If want to help yourself you must take charge and when you take charge you have the control not others. You must want to achieve the opposite what you are saying atm.

I wont say anymore. I got things to do myself. But I care about people. Hopefully the sunday night checker is not back (I stop all correspondence to remain positive). Just be mindful thatt sometimes a checker doesnt understand peoples needs.

I care about you. You got to care about yourself okay!

Re-5 things people get wrong

They just turn their backs because we're different and they don't want to know