Newbie to BPD

@Cats23 Hey Cats23 and welcome to the forum :). Firstly I would like to give you my condolences for the death of your mother. I hope that you will find some solace here on the forums amongst friends. We truly are a kind and friendly bunch of formites who have a variety of mental illnesses, or who are carers or even both like myself :). You might like to have a look around the board at the various threads. Some you might like to have a go at are the Good Morning! thread and A long rave . If you are into getting fir there is one which I am on called My fitness journey all of which you are more than welcome to contrbute to. Just remember to put a @infront of people's names if you want to talk with them directly so that they get a notification of your post.

I hope to see you around the forum. Love greenpea

Hello @Cats23

Sometimes a diagnosis can open doors and give us helpful ways of understanding being and life and death. Knowing your mother had a stroke is a lot for a child to carry. You probably have lots of mixed feelings about it all. Hope the forum helps a little.

@Bunniekins @Thanks for welcoming me Into this group and for suggesting other things I should check out. I was 9 when my life changed completely when mum had the stroke. I barely managed for awhile and now it's all catching up with me.

thanks for your love and support.

@Appleblossom

Yes definitely a lot of mixed emotions about it all which can be really confusing and come out in various ways. It was definitely a lot to carry as a 9 year old and having to grow up changed my whole life. There were many times I needed my mum but she wasn't able to be there emotionally and sometimes even physically. She lived in supported living accommodation after rehab and things so the relationship changed a lot.

Even as a child, you knew she could not help it, so no point in blaming, but needs go unmet. I have needed to reparent myself in many ways, though my mother's health was nowhere near as bad.

Have a LOT of patience with yourself. @Cats23 Its a big load.

Hi @Cats23

welcome 😊

I'm sorry about your mum passing.
I have BPD diagnosed back in 2010. It's been very difficult. I'm in early 50's.
Over the years I've had many psych hospital admissions.
Happy to chst agsin

thanks @outlander for tagging me

@Cats23 Hi... I'm very newly diagnosed myself. It is kinda surreal right now. It all makes so much sense but at the same time it kinda feels like a kick in the teeth. I always knew I was different but I had finally gotten to a place where I felt that my "different" was a unique and wonderful thing. Now I find out that it was just mental illness... bummer. Nice to "meet" you. I hope we get to chat sometime. It is really helpful to know that you are not alone in this.

@BlueBay I'm also in my 50's. Wish I had known SO much sooner. I am struggling to understand why now. Why didn't someone see this before. Why didn't I figure it out sooner. Or why didn't the doctors know when they were handing out antidpressants. I'm both relieved and angry at the same time, if that makes sense.

hello @ETBug , @Cats23 , @BlueBay , @outlander , @Appleblossom , sending you tender hugs xoxo

Thanks everyone for your support