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Hey @Lemonjuice 👋

My very therapy driven response (as in heard lots from my therapist) would be that while you are physically alive you have a chance to find ‘me’. I am very familiar with this part personally. Some days are ok but some I feel defeated like it’s too late to teach this old dog new tricks. I’m trying to just get through the defeated days one step at a time. The good days are starting to outnumber the bad. It takes time to get to this point though and you are still raw from recent life events. Go easy on you. Maybe it would be helpful to see if you can find one thing a day to smile about. It might be something small but they add up if you are open to them.

I havent got much more than that but wanted to respond as I connected with that post ....as I often do with your posts. Best wishes.

@Teej That's a pretty cool response. Thanks. I hope you are right and I am really happy that you are having more good days than bad.

hey @Lemonjuice

if you get lonely & isolated you might need to go to a bunch of meetups.

I made all my friends that way. I have BPD so that makes all my friendships tumultous and torurous but I keep at it.

Other than that I'm lost in nightmarish psychotic symptoms most of the time as my meds don't do much. I'm just trying to do strenuous activity every day to get fit. If you neglect your physical body you could wind up with a bunch of health problems or diseases like diabetes & obesity. I loathe doctors and doctors' appointments, got way too many on my plate with the GP & pdoc, so I look at all my health efforts as preventative.

@BryanaCamp thanks for the encouragement. I don't have any friends but I probably need to force myself to start friendships, join some groups. Work in progress.