5 years of depression then it got worst

Hi my name H, I'm 20 years old
I want tell you my story how I got depression
When I was 11-13 years old I went to a special needs school and I got bullied a lot I didnt care what they were saying but at the end my mum and my sister told me to stand up for myself so I did,
But what really happen how I got depression i was 14-15 years old, I had a boyfriend who I was In love with and it didn't end well by us breaking up over a stupid thing I didn't give up on him and I tried and tried to get him back then one day I gave up from the day I still think about it and sometimes I do wish it never happen
For a young age to be In love it happens
I had to many dramas in my life by having fights, getting into trouble, losing people in my life. I moved 1 hour away from where I grow up I missed all my friends I was 16 at the time for a yonug girl like me having no car nothing to go see my friends more then I did but when I turned 18 it changed I went down to Melbourne on weekends to go see my friends from then I lose my old school friends but I had one girl I was friends with from the day till now I'm best friends with her I met her sister and this other girl. But I couldn't really trust those two girls they use to met up with this person I didn't like this person that person wasn't good to me, that person use to say mean things to me, from me having depression and having a bad life. This year I got a boyfriend and I love him and we had stupid fights. Then It was little getting better in march it got worster every sec every min every week every month I lose a love one it was a guy who I was seeing last year the first guy I ever met when I moved I was 18-19 when I met him
The day he passed away I drove past his house and police were at his house at first I didn't want think it was him but when I got home and read all those messages about what happen it was him
It broke me so much I was crying and crying no stop I was crying for 2 weeks. Month later I got more depressed and angry, I got violent at my mum and dad they were scared when I got depressed and angry I run into the toilet people asks why the toilet it's got a lock on it that the only way I can be alone and no one can get me I got like this every 4-5 weeks or couple months, I get upset and angry sometimes because my parents are stressed from work and take it on me for no reason and it does hurt me when I try to be nice to everyone like them. Sometimes it's hard to explain what I'm going say and I can't finish it all my life I got left out and sat by myself at family friends events when I was 2-9 I was good friends with this girl and Others I grow up but now they don't talk to me and just leave me out, I'm a person who doesn't leave people out ever when I see a person a alone I go talk to them and bring them In the group. Yeh I got angry at times but I'm a nice and caring girl inside and out.
3 days a ago I lose my boyfriend over these two girls saying stuff it's not true to make him break up with me I'm not friends with those girls anymore after what they did I was so happy with him till now from the day from now I cry no stop by thinking what happen 5 years ago I have spoke to many people about this I'm seeing a lady and she little bit helping and my mum, my mum understands why I'm not giving up on this one I don't ever give up the people I love.

From my depression I hope this helps me to talk to people I don't even know out there and listen why they have depression and other problems in they life's.

Does anyone know good relaxing groups for people who have depression and angrier/violences