Help... my body has given up

I’m usually strong I can usually cope with everything that goes on around me but recently my body has given up, crashed & now I can’t find any energy to withdraw from.

The last 12 months have been hard.. harder than usual put it that way. 3 deaths that meant something to me, a divorce from a domestic violence relationship of 10 years & 4 beautiful little children. My mother feel sick

with mental health and lost her job. Financially I’m doing it alone, without my mum & grandparents id be on the streets with 4 children. Their father doesn’t send money. My children have all been placed in counselling to handle the deaths and their father leaving. Their father doesn’t visit often. My 5 year old son has separation anxiety and behaviour problems from the separation which are draining me. But I’m trying!

Then em recently I turned 30 & for some reason, I went into a panic. Started booking all these doctors for health checks cause I’m worried about my kids if something happens to me so then I went to get a will drawn up. And worked my anxiety up.

I am already on a a heavy dose of meds but today I increased by 1/2 again on top hoping I could put a blanket over it.

My career is hard, I work in a stressful position which I can normally tackle but making silly mistakes.

I feel exhausted, like my energy for life is withdrawn and now I’m constantly in bed hiding from the world withdrawing from people and situations.

I feel like I want to sleep and cant wake up... broken