*SCREAMS*

I want to scream at everyone. well not everyone but i feel like my insides are screaming all the time. I feel like I am gearing up for something i have no idea what but something big and I cant get my mind to shut off and i keep staying up late for no good reason other than i am watching stupid videos on youtube or watching interesting stuff or plannig stuff or thinking about big important things. and i want to paint but idk what and i want to make music and go out and explore and smell all the wattle that is coming out now and feel the wind on my face and i keep thinking i will go to bed early but then i look and i am getting into bed and it is 5am and ugh idk i know sleep is good but i dont even know how i keep getting so distracted. and i feel like i need to do everything NOW. idk i am just so frustrated and idk how i feel but it is like something life changing and super important is looming over the horizon i just feel weird and off but not exactly bad but then idk because i kind of feel bad in some ways ugh idk i just want to scream!