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I don't know what to say, @BlueBells, except to count down from 10 and breathe deeply just to attempt to stablize yourself first of all.
I experience this too, but I just ride it out instead of trying to fix it. I don't know what will work, I'm sorry.

Best of luck, and warm huggles...

Hi @BlueBells, have some hugs from me

Can I ask what kind of work are you doing? Sometimes it can help to move to a different workspace. It's like a fresh start where you haven't built up any feelings or reactions to your project. This works for me and writing tasks but I'm not sure if it's possible with what you're doing.

I'm a procastinator for tasks I'm not keen on and so I read your post with that lens. When we procrastinate there is often a build up of stress and anxiety, guilt and anger directed at yourself. I could be way off here though.

I'm feeling like that at the moment.. just cant settle to do paperwork/sitting down work. and when i do try to do it, i feel like i have no idea what/how to do it and just give up. hence so far behind...

hope that it gets easier for you soon

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It sounds like your work is bound up with some painful experiences @BlueBells. That would certainly get me procrastinating. Can you break in waaaay down into little do-able pieces? We're always told to do the hardest part first but in this instance an easy win would be better.

Realising that your self-worth isn't defined by getting it right helps, too but, as you say, that's a hard habit to break.

If it was possible I'd be taking a laptop to a local cafe and working there. That's more what I meant about moving workspaces. Or maybe even the library where you can spread out a little. It can be great being around people, with access to coffee and books, rather than stuck at home and feeling increasingly agitated.

Hope tomorrow is a better day