6 months later & i’m still struggling

Hi @Sad2 , welcome to the forums, its nice to meet you. I'm sorry you have been through such a hard time in the last 6 months. I have been in a psych ward so know how challenging that can be. Are you back on medication now? Its good that you are getting ongoing support, but, it sounds like you need more than that right now.

It's hard not to be fearful about losing everything, especially when you've worked so hard to get it in the first place. I think you have to plan and think for the future when your trying to run a business, that seems fairly logical to Me.

As far as keeping the wolves at bay, all I can think of is to really monitor your cash flow more than you have before and try to keep ahead of any further downturn. I'm not sure the economy is going to turn around any time soon, especially if your in a rural area or small town. Times are so hard. Maybe you can keep an eye out for other work to subidise your income if things keep falling away.

Your not alone. Lots of people have been through similar experiences and I think will provide a great deal of comfort and support to you. Have a look round the forums and don't be afraid to say Hi to people. I've only been here a short time, but, have found it very welcoming.

If you want people to get notified about your posts , add the @Sad2 to their name. Take good care and don't be afraid to reach out for help 🙂

Hi @Gazza75

thank you for your reply. I appreciate the support. Yes, I’m back on my anti-depressants and I’m also on anti-psychotics (for the anxiety). You’re right about watching the cashflow which I’m doing but I can’t handle being involved with work right now because every little thing becomes bigger things in my head. I’m lucky enough to have my sister fill in for me at work. Both my sister & my husband don’t want me checking on the business financials right now because they know I’ll overreact and not be able to deal. My counsellor agrees. The only problem with this is that I make up stories in my head of what I think is happening.

@Sad2, it's good that you have your sister and husband supporting and you can trust them to look after 'work' for a while. I know the feeling of things getting bigger in our minds, but, it sounds like your conscious of that and have taken measures to keep it in check. Well done.

How are you sleeping? For me, my spiral into mania was from lack of sleep so I'm always pretty mindful of asking people about that.

I think that signs of overreaction from you just show how much you care about your work and livelihood.

You already seem a bit calmer, so hopefully getting everything off your chest earlier was some help.

Sometimes, as hard as it is, we have to put our faith and trust in others and that might be the crossroads your at now. I think in the short to medium term you really need to take care of yourself as best you can and not get to caught up in work. Try and help your sister and husband in other ways to show your appreciation if you can. I think they would probably be just happy if that you are looking after YOU. Thanks for being so open and honest about what your going through, I know its not easy. 🙂

Thanks @Gazza75

My sleep patterns are not great right now. I avoid going to sleep until we’ll after midnight which I know is not healthy or helping me. You were spot on with summarising where I’m at at the moment. I’m trying to take one day at a time but I really wish I’d start having more good days than bad. I need to be patient, I know

@Sad2, maybe try and focus on those little things for yourself. Sleep a liltte more if you can. Try to fit in some exercise, eat healthy. I know its hard to be patient, especially when you just want to get on with things. I'm really battling with it myself right now in regard to my weight so I do know where you are coming from. Take care and stay as positive as you can.

@Gazza75 I feel for you about the weight thing. I’m putting weight on because of the meds. I’m having a very low day today, I don’t really see a way out. I hope you’re doing ok.

Hi @Sad2 , I'm doing pretty well thankyou for asking. I have a farm where I am heading out to today. It lets me clear my head and get away from everything. I'm very lucky in that I can work remotely. I don't like my job all that much, but, I do like the freedom of being able to do that.

I'm sorry about your weight problems to. Its not easy to have that on top of everythng else that is going on right now for you. Do you have any hobbies you can do to take your mind of things for a while? Do you listen to much music? I find music a good escape and can help me focus on things.

I know things are a bit rocky now, but, you should take some comfort and positives out of what and your husband have accomplished. It's no small feet to have your own business a home and other things in todays world. It takes a lot of courage and effort to do that. I did it myself for a few years without a great deal of success.

Hang in there, you have support and people that care about you.

Thank you @Gazza75

i’m glad you have a place to go to chill out. Hope you enjoy it. I do like listening to music & I restore antique furniture as a hobbie. My husband mentioned today that we’re going to downsize the business even further. I’m really hoping that we can keep the business running. He seems to think we can. I instead feel helpless & overwhelmed by this. It’s so tiring. I need to be around for my 16 year old daughter. I can’t be seen to be moping around all the time.

@Sad2, I hope you can keep the business going to. It sounds like you have been operating for a good while and despite the short term looking a bit gloomy, hopefully you can get it growing when times are better. I understand how worried you are by this and how much its wearing you down. I'm sure your daughter knows that your there for her if she needs you. I think its hard to find the balance between staying active with things and also having the down time you need for yourself. Maybe try and treat yourself to something, it doesn't need to anything to flash, but, it might give you a bit of a lift.

For once, I should be round later tonight if you want to chat a bit more. My thoughts and best wishes are with you. Take care.

Thanks @Gazza75

i’m grateful for these offerings of support. I don’t know what the future will bring but I’m determined not to do anything rash. My daughter is rather mature for her age and I believe she understands my struggle at the moment. She has her own things to worry about so I really want to get better sooner rather than later. I’m trying to find things to do each day that helps me tune out of the misery and just give myself some breathing room.