Difficulty controlling emotion/being triggered with BPD

Hi @Battlemouse71

yes I have BPD and diagnosed about 10 years ago.

Emotions - this is one of the hardest things for me to control. Like you one minute I’m ok and the next a raging angry person.

Its great you’ve done DBT. That’s meant to help regulate emotions.

Currently I’m not coping emotionally. I get very easily triggered and need to work on this.

Im happy to chat more. Just tag me.

Nice to meet you 😊

thanks @outlander for the tag xx

Thank you @BlueBay.

Good to meet you too. I was about to write that it is good to know I'm not the only one who has rages. Good isn't the right word of course... my rages affect my relationship with my partner so badly. She is still around though after 15 years, so I know I am extremely lucky.

I unfortunately try to control my emotions with tobacco and alcohol. I don't drink every day any more... Usually after an episode. I have so much shame after behaving so badly around and toward someone I care about.

I have been in a similar place to you lately in that I am back to having difficulty controlling my emotions. I can be happy and sad and then angry within the space of half an hour.

Im sorry to hear you have been having problems with it as well.

Why is it I can act like everything is OK with people who don't know me that well, but I can be so awful to those close to me?

Again, thank you for replying to my thread. Feel free to tag me any time.

Thank you @outlander. I haven't heard of 'STOP'. That might something I can work on in the moment before I lose self control. Thank you also for the tag of the other 2 users. Much appreciate it.

Yeah these outrage of emotions cause issues between me and hubby @Battlemouse71 And I’ve been married for 33 yrs.

it annoys and frustrates me so much that I’m like this.

Its always the ones closer to us that get hurt.

Are you seeing a psychologist?

Yep I'm with a really good psychologist. She is very casual but still professional if you know what I mean, and that makes me feel very comfortable

It sounds like you do have a great psychologist @Battlemouse71, have you been able to talk about how you feel far removed from mindfulness and how you cope when having an episode? Your partner sounds like great support.

@Battlemouse71 Hi Battlemouse71 (love your name btw) although I don't have BPD, I have schizoaffective disorder, I have in the past gotten very triggered. It is not only dangerous for me and other people around me but it is also exhausting. Now I am on a magic purple pill which does the trick in containing my emotions thank god. Even though I hate my meds in many ways it is the meds primarly plus my pdoc and mental health nurse which keep me sane. I hope this helps. greenpeax