oh boy, need s hand

2 day ago I was all fired up to go visit my ailing parents, timing actually felt right after 12months avoiding the family dysfunction 1200k away. I borrowed petrol money, started packing, told people I'm coming, readied the car, secured the mailbox, surprised myself I'm not anxious about the long drive alone. Then mum rang all worried about me driving in the heavy rain event & dog. I googled bom & thought it best to delayed a day as it should ease then (my tyres aren't good). When checking the oil yesterday it was empty so topped it up & worried about managing that. The plan to delay 24hrs seemed rational at the time but Hitting the floor 8am, after restless night, i'm physically H E A V Y & can't think well enough to prep a cuppa without dithering to distraction. Tried meditation but can't focus / settle myself.